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REALLY BAD DAY.fUCKIN' A.Don't want to be hereb ,don't want to be doing this ....feel like crying....don't have time.Suck it up Nora really it's been ten months now,I know the trial is starting soon.....you probably won't be able to be there ...you can't handle any more details ....tooo painful....but ,who will be there for Brittany.He was my favorite brother,he saved my life more than once. also saved me from jail. i really miss him,it really hurts.

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What do I talk about with friends:economy,how to get by,advice on issues,housing crisis,depression,God,hope for a better tomorrow.The thing I hate about the news is it's 90% or more bad news only.When they caught the people charged with my brothers death it was on page 5 and a small article.However ,when he got killed it was front page in papers and 1st on the news for 5 or more nights. Never see updates on stories.Little or no positive stories of hope or helping others.World affairs are over my head. i can't even get a grip on my world much less someone else's.Movies:Ghost movies and comedies and different ones like,Labrinth,boondock saints,constitine,equaliberium,nothin' to lose with martin laurence is one of my favorites.I love a good movie. You completely check out of your life and are in someone else's for 2 hours.So it seems.Pitch black, benny and june and narnia are some others I like.Theres still so many I haven't seen. Television now consists of news and a couple of off beat shows like medium and house and greys anatomy. I only have a converter box so I only get 5 channels even though I have an antenna as big as a car.Fuck You digital converter box and FCC for changing frequencies. probably write my paper on Mike's death the police screw ups and the shitty 911 center and all the fucked up laws that allow squatters to stay and fine you if they're selling drugs.

3-9-10

After evicting the bar guy and hearing about the unsuccessful raid for drugs on the restaurant I know I'm in danger. The restaurant owner would not show up on saturday and explain why the door to the basement had a new lock on it. There is no reason to lock that door unless your hiding something.My nephew danny and I busted it off and also broke off the lock attachments. We already told him not to lock it so the meters can get read as necessary. Now I have to go back sunday a give more eviction papers to a tenant who boyfriend already threatened me.The structural engineer is trying to charge me 700.00 for an estimate on work to be done to the foundation.He says if I don't pay him he'll turn my dangerous building in to the city of chicago violations department.Fucking assholes, do they think I was born yesterday? Lets see how he likes responding to the Attorney General's office.PIG.Well I will now attempt to do my real homework, no promises though.

2-27-10

Why does my life suck? well some people have it worse.Today I spent quality time with my x and the hooker he married. It's probably cheaper that way.Anyhooo,Victor did not show up to have that talk with him. The structural engineer also did not show and I could not get my shit together after working all day cleaning other peoples messes.Why don't I make time for fun.What is the constant distraction. I needed to get paid to bail out my account after paying so many bills.2. I had to get my helper home after paying him(he doesn't drive).I had to get x his money so he can give it to his hooker wife. I am filthy with dust and dirt from that basement and cannot wait to shower. So many spiders, it feels like their all over me.AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2-24-10

crippling fear overwhelms me as I realize my feelings of being inadaquit over powers my ability to move forward. My problem is beyond procrastination. all those years without a computer and without the help I needed to learn. why? I ask myself don't you at least try to get it done. so confused and all my stuff keeps coming up missing. waisting time just looking for lost items ; syllabus, licence,credit cards, paperwork why is it all missing at the same time. I'm not sure what to do so I will attempt 1 assignment even though i'm behind several.I was hoping there were only 3 assignments in english 102,at least thats what i was told.I'm ready to quit so what's stopping me?

2-2-10

wishin' I was dead today.In that damn create a blog class, (haha), so regardless the class I cannot stop myself from checking out. back to my story. Mike's store finally sold and the new guy is totally rehabbing the place GOOD but without permits BAD I hope he has bribery money on him.The tenant that treatened me last month has not been out of his apt drunk or sober THANK GOD I did not want to have him arrested. We finally got a lawyer on evicting the bar guy, unless he pays his bad debt owed Mike to Brittany he's out.what a relief,he is such an asshole,hiding from us to avoid rent payment,bad checks having gang members in his bar,the same gang that killed Mike. OUT yuo bastard,welching on your debt because he's dead. New buyer looking at it this weekend and re-negotiating the commercial signs. I need some kind of property comparision for sinage to help me. I will try to get something along those lines. Everything else is going pretty well. I'm still trying to get Mike's credit report so we can run all his cards for that damn insurance payment. God help them if I find it. trying to sell those other two buildings at the same time was a stupid idea,I have more than enough work to do ,I j

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It's hard to remember where I left off. I don't like to reread my pain, so forward I go.last I remember jackie was trying to embezzle and extort from Brittany's estate. We held a hard line and won. Emily had taken jackie's side and was making things worse after 30 years of friendship to me and mike what a backstabber. She called and apologized a couple of days ago after jackie turned on her. I accepted her amends but fool me twice shame on me. walk away nora it's for the best.Sweet Jesus that asshole is finally gonna buy the store this week jan 14th is the closing. all that work for it to be stalled for 3 months.The 12 unit building finally fully rented.a lot of work credit checks and background checks and paperwork out the ears. I'm going to court the 13th with brittany,my first time in front of the other 2 accused assailants.The shooter got 47 years no parole. I was at counseling winding down my emotions of it all trying to gain some perspective and forward momentum.Work is my oasis,my job is fun and easy. school on the other hand starts again next week and i'm never ready. so much to do not enough time.NEED to renu my CDL licence,apply to nursing program only 2 pre-recs left,dental work to be done and for Brittany find the credit card payment so those bastards at trans america life insurance will pay her,show the building for sale ,evict the non paying tenants,find a lawyer who will take the case against the 911 center for dropping the call resulting in my brothers death.Meanwhile trying to help mr.meers sell his buildings so he can get out of Chicago.oh and the final walk through tomorrow with the buyer for Mike's store.,I better get some sleep!!!!