Saturday, April 3, 2010


very emotional weekend,happy easter,i miss spring break already. tough lessons learned. mike guide me in what to do.please send a buyer for the building i can't do this anymore,please God get me out of there.jesus saves,well please save me,help me get finished with this burden and move forward with my life.marge is getting other estimates for structural engineering,restaurant owners insurance does not want 2 pay for fire damage because they say there was another fire before(true) and it wasn't repaired properly,so they want to make our insurance pay for it.will the bullshit ever end.the new store owner ripped up and remodeled store without permits and took building manager sign down which is another building violation.when will the stupidity end.i'm so tired ,I'm so spent,i'm so done,please God get me out of here

Thursday, April 1, 2010


research paper will be on the complexities of murder.what pushes people that far? what mental states justify and rationalize this behavior? why do they almost always deny it? I had a co-worker,Jane Reth, who was extradited to Alaska for her husbands murder 22 years ago.I don't understand how people go that far and are not sorry!ANYHEW stress crash lasted three day,then i felt resurrected into another someone drugging me....I feel peaceful,more peaceful than i've ever felt before. It's very distracting, can't stay focused on anything,but it's good to have a break from that crushing emotional pain and helplessness from Mike's murder.It will be some kind of miracle if I ever get my shit together again......