Saturday, February 27, 2010


Why does my life suck? well some people have it worse.Today I spent quality time with my x and the hooker he married. It's probably cheaper that way.Anyhooo,Victor did not show up to have that talk with him. The structural engineer also did not show and I could not get my shit together after working all day cleaning other peoples messes.Why don't I make time for fun.What is the constant distraction. I needed to get paid to bail out my account after paying so many bills.2. I had to get my helper home after paying him(he doesn't drive).I had to get x his money so he can give it to his hooker wife. I am filthy with dust and dirt from that basement and cannot wait to shower. So many spiders, it feels like their all over me.AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Wednesday, February 24, 2010


crippling fear overwhelms me as I realize my feelings of being inadaquit over powers my ability to move forward. My problem is beyond procrastination. all those years without a computer and without the help I needed to learn. why? I ask myself don't you at least try to get it done. so confused and all my stuff keeps coming up missing. waisting time just looking for lost items ; syllabus, licence,credit cards, paperwork why is it all missing at the same time. I'm not sure what to do so I will attempt 1 assignment even though i'm behind several.I was hoping there were only 3 assignments in english 102,at least thats what i was told.I'm ready to quit so what's stopping me?

Tuesday, February 2, 2010


wishin' I was dead today.In that damn create a blog class, (haha), so regardless the class I cannot stop myself from checking out. back to my story. Mike's store finally sold and the new guy is totally rehabbing the place GOOD but without permits BAD I hope he has bribery money on him.The tenant that treatened me last month has not been out of his apt drunk or sober THANK GOD I did not want to have him arrested. We finally got a lawyer on evicting the bar guy, unless he pays his bad debt owed Mike to Brittany he's out.what a relief,he is such an asshole,hiding from us to avoid rent payment,bad checks having gang members in his bar,the same gang that killed Mike. OUT yuo bastard,welching on your debt because he's dead. New buyer looking at it this weekend and re-negotiating the commercial signs. I need some kind of property comparision for sinage to help me. I will try to get something along those lines. Everything else is going pretty well. I'm still trying to get Mike's credit report so we can run all his cards for that damn insurance payment. God help them if I find it. trying to sell those other two buildings at the same time was a stupid idea,I have more than enough work to do ,I j